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A New Day

So many times my silence and clouded eyes were unpredictable and the darkness that surrounded the light appeared to be inevitable. 

But with each new day I embellish my mind with this thought of this new beginning. This new journey; seeing as living in the shadows is no longer comforting.

Prayer has become my new norm even when my heart beat elevates. I find solitude in knowing my Savior although sometimes I can’t seem to explain my pain. 

I am thankful for each sunrise and humbled by the sunsets. Time has brought a new meaning of living and I try my best to bask in each moment.

Memories have become meaningful as laughs are filled with joy. My spirit has calmed, no more raging noise.  

Letting go and letting God is healing more than just wounds…it is healing my soul. I walk to Him on my own, but know I am never alone. 

Although human flaws continue to follow me, I remain of good faith. Something about knowing that my sins don’t define me gives me strength.

Even in the mist of error, I keep His promise close. His Love has no limits, no boundaries, and that’s what I hold on to the most. 

I have learned to listen to this world in a different tune. More importantly, I have learned not to start each day looking in my rearview.

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A Wounded Sheep

My heart caves in as I listen to his cries. I feel helpless to his pain. All I can do is cover the wounds, but Lord it is You that he needs. I can only wipe away so many tears before he starts to become numb to my efforts. And as he cries out to You, I follow his lead because his wounds are overwhelming me. So much pain for one to bare. Lord I am trying to understand Your reasoning behind this man’s despair? I pray constantly for his healing. He doesn’t feel as though he was meant to lead and he doesn’t believe he will find peace. He feels as though he has sacrificed so much, including friends and family, only to gain so little. It is becoming harder to show him the truth that lies behind those regular thoughts. God help me to become the strength he needs. Help me bring his worries at ease. Reach out to him and let him know You are here and You hear his cries. I do try to tell myself that there is triumph waiting on the other side, but as the days go by, I start to feel the need to take blame for his many restless nights.