Posted in mental, mental dilemma, perceptions, poetry

Mirror

Your movements are like an ocean without the tidal waves. You flow with calming persistence.

Your armor is that of steel plates that seem impenetrable. No earthly weapons forged can withstand the power of your resistance.

Your pride carries an unwavering tune that stifles all surrounding thoughts and opinions. What else can be said that is not already displayed?

The melodies of your heart shout with passion and, interestingly enough, some confusion. Almost as if you are demonstrating the essence of determination.

Your mind is awakened with eagerness to expand its potential. Turning the pages as if there is a neverending supply of unsaturated material.

The soft touch of your hands can bring motivation and hope behind possibilities. Can it be a matter of coincidence that they are most guarded in spaces that bring them peace?

Now even with that display of prowess, you still have yet to understand the truth behind the eyes you see. For some reason you are still left wondering how a smile and strength can hide one’s own incompetence to identifying their true greatness.

What more do you seek? What is there left to see? Could it be that this mirrored reflection is only a distraction from the timeless and subtle feeling of fear underneath?

Has it finally hit you that this method of protection and safety is obsolete? No need to ponder more on what is unknown, because at the end of it all what matters is Who you have known.

What is greatness without the acknowledgement that you will never be fully in control, especially when pushing beyond expectations can take its toll.

Why work so hard to show others your capabilities when you have yet to grasp the person you see? Home is where the heart is but what is home without Him in it?

Now I ask you again…what is your true conviction?

Posted in growth, love, mental dilemma, perceptions, spiritual guidance

ContinUed…

The dryness of the air suffocating the words left in me

Mentally I thirst for Your Love and continue to faithfully pursue Thee

No amount of transgressions has shaken this feeling thus far or stirred me beyond recognition

However, physically, I am as stiff as a board just waiting for You to ground my feet

Just saying this out loud to You is embarrassing and I am ashamed of this hesitation

Asking are You there has not been the question for ages

Rather how can I be more like You remains a heavy destination

This assignment is still overwhelming and guidance may not always seem as transparent

The thought of staying in this place with falling leaves occupying the Spring was my poor attempt to not take on the physical responsibility anymore

Maybe the naive thought of continuing this journey with some ease (and potentially a little more time) is what I hoped for

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Please forgive me for this empty explanation and I know the excuses have been reached a dead end

Our conversations can initially appear so complex only to be resolved with a humble submission

Your grace is undeserving and no amount of words can ever fully articulate my appreciation

So now I say to You that I am ready to let go of the dead and allow these branches to start budding with Agape again