agape – TheKiaraProject

The dryness of the air suffocating the words left in me

Mentally I thirst for Your Love and continue to faithfully pursue Thee

No amount of transgressions has shaken this feeling thus far or stirred me beyond recognition

However, physically, I am as stiff as a board just waiting for You to ground my feet

Just saying this out loud to You is embarrassing and I am ashamed of this hesitation

Asking are You there has not been the question for ages

Rather how can I be more like You remains a heavy destination

This assignment is still overwhelming and guidance may not always seem as transparent

The thought of staying in this place with falling leaves occupying the Spring was my poor attempt to not take on the physical responsibility anymore

Maybe the naive thought of continuing this journey with some ease (and potentially a little more time) is what I hoped for

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Please forgive me for this empty explanation and I know the excuses have been reached a dead end

Our conversations can initially appear so complex only to be resolved with a humble submission

Your grace is undeserving and no amount of words can ever fully articulate my appreciation

So now I say to You that I am ready to let go of the dead and allow these branches to start budding with Agape again

Although you sprung from my womb, your existence was evident before our time. You were among the many seeds just waiting to be planted by the Gardener. By His grace, He chose us to help oversee your growth. Our position is not to grow your seed in the place or conditions we wish for you to be in. It is simply to utilize the resources we have been given and lay down a foundation of Agape so that you can set your roots and grow into what you were destined to be.

We don’t expect this new journey to be easy. There will be many days of droughts, and many days of floods. Conditions will not always be ideal and our tools will need to be upgraded from time to time. But hey, we will love and be thankful for every moment of it. As overwhelming as things may get, we dare not complain because we asked for this.

To our little sprout, these past two years have taught us so much and watching you grow has been a life changing experience. I pray that the Lord continues to deepen your roots and guide us to provide the right nourishment for you to bloom into the healthy, flourishing evergreen you were destined to be.