Tag: confusion

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It Starts With Disarray

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The moment something is out of place,  the fixation begins. Why is this happening? What series of events led to this?

Neglecting the subtle signs of certainty, the mental torture ignites into this raging fire of discomfort and confusion.

Questions are becoming endless and answers seem to be too few and far between. The temptation to make an enemy out of nothing is a reflection of the strife consuming fragments of one’s being.

How does one just stop this? Let go of the push and pull that comes with the desire to just walk away from it all? How long after the darkness does light start to shine back in?…If it shines in.

The depths of moments like these expose a much more fragile, self-destructive  interpretation of this mishap. Five minutes have not even passed since the start of this turmoil and time again has left you behind.

Not surprisingly though, an overanalysis has once again evolved into an overreaction and in turn resulted in an overflow of self-doubt.

Lord maybe one day I will get it right and first look to You.

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The Collapse

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I have seen this occurrence before a few times.

The scenery and the moments that lead up to the event may differ some…

But nevertheless the ending never fails to appear.

These “dreams” don’t feel like a typical dream.

The breaking, the chaos, the screams seem so real.

My body shakes as my eyes try to grasp hold of the sight before me.

As it all drops, the sense of hopelessness and fear rush through my veins.

Lord why am I here?

Prayer is all I can turn to as fate seems to near.

But then I instantly wake up, wondering…

Was this a warning or will it be destiny?

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Shipwrecked

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Can somebody explain to me what is going on!!? The tides were calm and steady. Our sails were flowing with the wind, pushing our ship along the waters. The sun was nice and bright. Everything was good and it seemed as though nothing could take this peace away from us. But then this raging storm just came out of nowhere. We were so blindsided by its force that I could not process what was even going on. All I knew was that the tides were no longer on our side. My state of mind immediately became uncontrollable. Our beautiful ship was being engulfed by the large body of water. Our world became dark.

Now we are here, alone, fighting to stay afloat. My heart and mind are in a race, still trying to understand how it took only seconds to change my life for the worse. I call out to God, searching for an explanation rather than a rescue. For some odd reason, I can accept what happened, but not understanding why is what is bothering me….The last thing I remember before the wreck was opening my mouth to have an honest conversation about someone, on another passing ship, who had caught his eye.