Why do I feel like the more I try to hold on to faith, the more I seem to lose it? The more I ask him to walk with me the more he wants to refuse.
I focus on the small things in the dark and not paying attention to the light. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, the young woman I see is not I.
My mission, my purpose grows further away. I am too impatient and clueless to what is going on. I doubt I will ever be ready.
Been bruised so many times I don’t know when to take a chance at life. I bet He is getting tired of all this whining.
I see happiness around me but can’t discover my own. And the things I want the most seem long gone.
But I am too curious to let go. That seems to be the only thing that is keeping me afloat.
I know it takes time but I don’t want to lie to myself either. This is hard and sometimes I just wonder if You are listening.
I’m tired of these feelings and I don’t want to be angry, but Lord I ask…What do you want from me!!!!????
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