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Vulner-

Posted on by KDP

The desire for silence can become dangerously tempting in moments where I should be celebrating. In moments where I should be present.

Why do the sounds of certain pleasures feel so intolerable at times? When did this enticing portal of separation become so engulfed in flames of self-alienation?

How do I preserve the foundations of Love without sacrificing this level of comfort I get from the distancing? Surely it is possible to continue with this illusion just a little longer to avoid the potential fear of vulnerability that waits within.

Enough with the banter? It will not be long before shame and guilt start to settle in. Yes, silence is comforting in many ways. However, we both know the dangers of having certain things go my way.

Is the temporary enticement worth it? Is the vulnerability of being present that overwhelming? Or could this be a necessary disruption shown as a reminder that healing is never an endpoint but a journey.

Although my mind has become less settling in some ways, the mi-NOOT awareness of triumph may root itself one day.

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Warm Skin

Posted on by KDP

It is not often that your mind and body are at one so you contemplate. How do I proceed? Honest affection has become sexual greed. Even love between two good souls can still bring about a destruction end. Once you’ve moved the palm of your hand softly across their gentle skin, your mind convinces you that there is only one way to go from here. As your temperature rises, there is a slight hesitation. Do you keep caressing their body while admiring their beauty? Or do you stop in efforts to protect this sacred being from your poisoned ideology? As your subconscious tries to process these questions your eyes has already made a decision for you that you can’t seem to resist. So soft, so warm, so nurturing. They too have become susceptible to your touch. You don’t want to stop and why should you? I mean what’s wrong with exploring the physicality of the one you are in love with?… As you start to drown yourself in an ocean of lustful bliss, your mind sends you into the depths of a spiritual dilemma. Yes this beautiful skin is too tempting to ignore, but is it worth the guilt you will soon endure?