Though I wasn’t in control over the events that took place, my heart felt as though it wouldn’t be any different if I was. As I tied my shoes and stood up, I was surprised to look down and see my shoes partially laced. That immediately caught the eye of one of the two cats within the room and it positioned itself to jump at my laces. In its eyes it was just an object that it could play with. That was its instinct. However, I didn’t care to see it that way and in my eyes, the cat and the laces were at this point annoying me. All I wanted to do was get going about my day. And I did not even bother to try and figure out why the cats were there in the first place. Why couldn’t this cat just leave them alone? And how in the world did these laces become undone anyway after I literally just tied them? My shoelaces were not made to be a cat’s toy and last I checked, I knew how to tie shoes. I don’t know what was going on with me that day. Out of habit and frustration, I attacked the cat without thinking. Though it was only going for my laces, I felt as though it was threatening me and my time. An unnecessary reaction I guess you can say. Out of all things to battle today, I choose a cat….a cat.
But I tried to remind myself that it was just a dream. Or was it? Maybe there is a message hiding in the depths of my perception. I don’t even like cats and dreaming about them, along with a random situation like tying my shoes, was far from my average dream. What could it mean? How would these two objects correlate with my life? How do they reflect me? Why did I feel so justified in my actions? Was the cat really my enemy? Or was I my own enemy? Why didn’t my shoelaces stay tied? It is funny how something as simple as trying to tie my shoes turned into this complex puzzle of never-ending questions. Symbolic themes of femininity and preparedness kept coming across my path. Am I not being womanly enough? Do I still have too much of a frisky nature that is preventing those close to me from getting near? Am I less prepared than I realized for what is to come? My God, You and I are going to have a nice long chat because I refuse to leave this to my own interpretation. The most interesting part of it all is how the most simple and random vision of cats and shoelaces came to be a symbolic, yet questionable, reflection of my life. And here I was trying to convince myself that it was just a “dream”.
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