hope – TheKiaraProject

mental, mental dilemma, perceptions, poetry

Mirror

Posted on April 30, 2025April 30, 2025 by KDP

Your movements are like an ocean without the tidal waves. You flow with calming persistence.

Your armor is that of steel plates that seem impenetrable. No earthly weapons forged can withstand the power of your resistance.

Your pride carries an unwavering tune that stifles all surrounding thoughts and opinions. What else can be said that is not already displayed?

The melodies of your heart shout with passion and, interestingly enough, some confusion. Almost as if you are demonstrating the essence of determination.

Your mind is awakened with eagerness to expand its potential. Turning the pages as if there is a neverending supply of unsaturated material.

The soft touch of your hands can bring motivation and hope behind possibilities. Can it be a matter of coincidence that they are most guarded in spaces that bring them peace?

Now even with that display of prowess, you still have yet to understand the truth behind the eyes you see. For some reason you are still left wondering how a smile and strength can hide one’s own incompetence to identifying their true greatness.

What more do you seek? What is there left to see? Could it be that this mirrored reflection is only a distraction from the timeless and subtle feeling of fear underneath?

Has it finally hit you that this method of protection and safety is obsolete? No need to ponder more on what is unknown, because at the end of it all what matters is Who you have known.

What is greatness without the acknowledgement that you will never be fully in control, especially when pushing beyond expectations can take its toll.

Why work so hard to show others your capabilities when you have yet to grasp the person you see? Home is where the heart is but what is home without Him in it?

Now I ask you again…what is your true conviction?

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It is not too often that I think about you, but when I do…

Posted on October 11, 2024October 11, 2024 by KDP

So empty they have been; The darkness is very unsettling. Your eyes appear like black holes; What is this unstable phenomenon?

On one hand, I am angry at what seemed to be inevitable without proper intervention. On the other, I want to protect even the smallest amount of innocence that may remain in you.

What is needed to try and recover the hope left in you? At times even I have hope. Yes, I have hope for you. How much would change if we further assessed what has led to this? Would you even feel safe enough to process this?

I did not know what to do and we were unfortunately never taught how to embrace with grace, protect each other or forgive like our peers. The guilt may continue to weigh on my heart for a little while longer as I think back to those adverse childhood experiences.

Those rebellions now seem more like they were cries for help more than attention and I wished I could have been more receptive to you. But I too was a lost child that longed to be seen. A helpless witness, why did fear seem to mute my screams?

How could I have been more of the keeper that you needed? How could I have known and done better even though processing my own pain felt like it was running on E?

I love you and I continue to pray that one day we will both find peace and heal from these memories.

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Pour

Posted on October 7, 2024October 7, 2024 by KDP

You can’t keep pouring into others when you don’t pour back into yourself.

Take care of YOU.

Our bodies, minds and spirit thirst for healing and replenishment.

Give back to YOU.

What good does it do to passionately expel so much energy into things that do not nourish you? Self care for YOU.

Self care for YOU.

Pride can mask insecurities and the fear of vulnerability. Do not allow it to disrupt the peace within you.

Make way for YOU.

Time is endless but your time is not so why waste it dismissing the need to let Him lead.

Let Him pour into YOU.

Life does not give out refunds. Give yourself grace, let go of the control, and allow faith to proceed.

It starts with YOU.

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S.E.L.A.H.

Posted on September 2, 2024September 28, 2025 by KDP

Sounds are amplified yet words cannot be formed

Emulating the devotion to truth, vision is overcome with sorrow

Likeability tormenting the hearts of reason

Abundance is the natural tendency to question the call

Heavy is the burden of moving against the conformation

Selah.

Salvaging what remains after death, caution begins to heal

Elevation of wonder for the path to revelations is narrow

Leveraging the insightfulness of disappointment and dismay

Absent is the strife that once formed this perspective of life

Hope is separating from the fragility of doubt

Selah.

Starving the deception that plagues the tongue

Enlighten the confusion, fear’s grasp plunges

Love with conviction as only faith can endure

Accountability to just self fades, the collective becomes focus

Heaven is the destination, discipline builds upon the foundation

Selah.

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The Great Wall of Emotions

Posted on August 13, 2024August 14, 2024 by KDP

These moments are becoming more common and even draining at times

At what point in the constant temptation to walk away from it all do you give in?

The wall you worked hard at building to separate the temptation has managed to form cracks… internally

Then again, maybe that is the problem.

The desire to avoid the temptation rather than addressing it is the cause of this…this feeling… this thinking.

It should not be one of my greatest concerns. Yet for some reason my cry is louder than it has been in a long time.

I know You can hear me and my words may not always be articulated with divine. But this unsettling feeling is being put in Your hands.

Loving more like You is the journey I hope to conquer. And I pray that this subtle feeling does not one day consume me.

Because I know Your Spirit can cling to mine with ease. If I just let my guard down and let You lead.

Hopefully my vision to see beyond the trees is not too out of focus. The temptation to wander off may come and go, but my desire to know You is without question.

These feelings are so bittersweet. One moment I am witnessing how Your Love illuminates the beauty and endless possibilities this life can bring. And the next moment, I am witnessing the true meaning behind the Book of Ecclesiastes.

Selah.

growth, love, mental dilemma, perceptions, spiritual guidance

ContinUed…

Posted on May 21, 2024May 23, 2024 by KDP

The dryness of the air suffocating the words left in me

Mentally I thirst for Your Love and continue to faithfully pursue Thee

No amount of transgressions has shaken this feeling thus far or stirred me beyond recognition

However, physically, I am as stiff as a board just waiting for You to ground my feet

Just saying this out loud to You is embarrassing and I am ashamed of this hesitation

Asking are You there has not been the question for ages

Rather how can I be more like You remains a heavy destination

This assignment is still overwhelming and guidance may not always seem as transparent

The thought of staying in this place with falling leaves occupying the Spring was my poor attempt to not take on the physical responsibility anymore

Maybe the naive thought of continuing this journey with some ease (and potentially a little more time) is what I hoped for

…..

Please forgive me for this empty explanation and I know the excuses have been reached a dead end

Our conversations can initially appear so complex only to be resolved with a humble submission

Your grace is undeserving and no amount of words can ever fully articulate my appreciation

So now I say to You that I am ready to let go of the dead and allow these branches to start budding with Agape again

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That…

Posted on August 23, 2022August 23, 2022 by KDP

That unsettling thought where you want to just erase people from your memory because the traumatic memories can be too overwhelming at times.

That bitter taste in your mouth that comes and goes because it is hard for you to accept that there is no “fixing” the past.

That cold to the touch feeling you get every time you are reminded that time is limited and the only one who can keep you from your destiny is you.

That annoying voice that keeps telling you to “Let go and let God” when all you want to do is scream.

And then there’s that…

That stubborn mentality that refuses to give up and continues to prove that maybe there is more fight left in you to heal!

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hide and seek

Posted on August 21, 2022August 21, 2022 by KDP

It’s funny how we look at isolation and hiding as a protective measure but when just a little bit of light shines on us, scars appear and we become confused as to where they came from.

In the darkness, we hid ourselves from want we thought would harm us. We hid ourselves because we felt that was the best way to stay safe. We have become so blind that we don’t realize that we are also hiding ourselves from the truth. Fear kept us away from the true meaning of light. The love, hope, and nourishment of that Light.

And in reality, we were committing self harm.

Why do we tend to seek comfort in the darkness? Why have we become so accepting of the darkness surrounding us? Why is the feeling of love, hope, and joy so terrifying to imagine.

Why do we continue to wait for others to find us when the only one playing hide and seek is ourselves?

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