Drowning in thought is such painful experience. At times I feel paralyzed in a negative state of mind. Just the thought of someone potentially lying, hurting, or deceiving me sends my mind into this dark abyss. I know this darkness is generational which is why I pray constantly for the Lord to take it from me. I want it to end with me. Another innocent soul shouldn’t have to live with this tainted blood of mine. Sometimes I get so trapped that I black out and feel as though my spirit has left me. I don’t know when I will ever be free from this. If only people knew the thoughts that haunt me. Tears fall but I don’t want or feel sympathy for myself. This mental and emotional madness is trying to corrupt me but my God, I know that You will save me!
Tag: insanity
My Little Puppet
Temporary trials overshadow the blessings I receive. Smiling on the outside is convincing when your audience is consciously blind. I am a puppet of my own mind while the lack of confidence is pulling the strings. Being your own prisoner is depressing but it’s when you become aware of that entrapment that you start to feel insane.
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