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The Great Wall of Emotions

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These moments are becoming more common and even draining at times

At what point in the constant temptation to walk away from it all do you give in?

The wall you worked hard at building to separate the temptation has managed to form cracks… internally

Then again, maybe that is the problem.

The desire to avoid the temptation rather than addressing it is the cause of this…this feeling… this thinking.

It should not be one of my greatest concerns. Yet for some reason my cry is louder than it has been in a long time.

I know You can hear me and my words may not always be articulated with divine. But this unsettling feeling is being put in Your hands.

Loving more like You is the journey I hope to conquer. And I pray that this subtle feeling does not one day consume me.

Because I know Your Spirit can cling to mine with ease. If I just let my guard down and let You lead.

Hopefully my vision to see beyond the trees is not too out of focus. The temptation to wander off may come and go, but my desire to know You is without question.

These feelings are so bittersweet. One moment I am witnessing how Your Love illuminates the beauty and endless possibilities this life can bring.  And the next moment, I am witnessing the true meaning behind the Book of Ecclesiastes.

Selah.

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Light it Up

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Naked in thought, I carry no more weapons

Clothed in transparency, I no longer seek perfection

Fixated on this blaze as it roars through the night sky

Oh what a surprisingly warm feeling it gives me on the inside

Where will the flames lead I care not to wonder

And these actions may come off initially as a reckless gesture

However, I promised myself long ago that if this moment dares to appear again

I would light it up without question

Its Greatness has been accepted and I look forward to the regeneration.

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hide and seek

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It’s funny how we look at isolation and hiding as a protective measure but when just a little bit of light shines on us, scars appear and we become confused as to where they came from.

In the darkness, we hid ourselves from want we thought would harm us. We hid ourselves because we felt that was the best way to stay safe. We have become so blind that we don’t realize that we are also hiding ourselves from the truth. Fear kept us away from the true meaning of light. The love, hope, and nourishment of that Light.

And in reality, we were committing self harm.

Why do we tend to seek comfort in the darkness? Why have we become so accepting of the darkness surrounding us? Why is the feeling of love, hope, and joy so terrifying to imagine.

Why do we continue to wait for others to find us when the only one playing hide and seek is ourselves?

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Safe Tree

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As I sit along this tree, those deep and dark eyes stare into mine. You want my tears to fall into your hands. You smile waiting for me to reach out to you in comfort. Through your eyes, you see a woman who appears hopeless and in need of her desires to be filled. One who has lost their way perhaps? So close she has let you get to her. All you need now is for her to tell you yes so you can add power to that ugly name. But I assure you you are wasting your time. Everyone knows one can only see so far in darkness. The only way to see things clearly and for what they really are is with Light. You smile but have yet to realize you have been sitting here, so close, waiting on me for years and yet you are still stuck in that same spot. My tears won’t fall into your hands because He continues to catch them. My desires are temporary and can never fill me with this unconditional love. I will admit, stubbornness can be tiring, which is why I regularly come to my Father’s tree. But I assure you, even as you continue to fix your eyes on me, hopelessness is no longer within me. Those dark eyes may always follow me, but through your attempts, I am reassured that my life has great meaning.