Tag: overthinking

I have been going back and forth to this blog for months. Do I write? How should I word these posts? Have I lost my desire to write? Are they really helping anyone (myself or others)? So many random and conflicting thoughts running through my mind with no clear beginning or end. Phrases…..quotes….incomplete sentences.

For example:

1. It’s funny how we look at isolation and hiding as a protective measure but when just a little bit of light shines on us, scars appear and we become confused as to where they came from. Because in the darkness we hid ourselves from want we thought would harm us. We hid ourselves because we felt that was the best way to stay safe. We have become so blind that we don’t realize that we are also hiding ourselves from the truth. Fear kept us away from the true meaning of light. The love, hope, and nourishment of that Light…
2. “If you find yourself always wanting more things then you will always find your glass half empty.”-KDP
3. I hate that I haven’t found the courage to laugh and love some friends and family as I once did. I get around some of them and immediately it’s like the old pain and desire to forgive.
4. “Fear is a dead end.”-Lisa Bevere
5. “In today’s world, being true to yourself is becoming more socially unacceptable.”-KDP
6. This toxic environment is getting to me. I pray for wisdom and patience because my motivation to continue this work left months ago. Greed and validation drives their selfish ways. God has shown me their true characters and intentions which has allowed me to set my many boundaries early before their darkness influenced me. I don’t want to be here and it has honestly been difficult trying to understand why I need to stay. Yes, I have met some amazing, God-fearing people at this place that have helped restore my belief but many of them will be leaving soon…….This learning experience has shown me a lot and maybe this is His way of saying where I thought He wanted me to go wasn’t His plan for me. Or maybe I am overthinking it as usual (haha)….I just…..nevermind……[Delete]
7. “The greatest epidemic we have yet to conquer is ignorance.”-Anonymous
8. “Knowledge without love destroys.” John Bevere
9. I can’t…nope not going there
10. The difference between hearing and listening is that only one has the desire to understand.”-KDP
11. “How you treat others gives insight to how you see yourself.”-KDP
12. I really wish I could be there more for my little brother D and sister Kiki but during this last visit my God has shown me that they are still paying attention and need me even when I think my impact is limited by distance.
13. “Never confuse movement with progress because you can run in place and go nowhere.”-Denzel Washington
14. “Feed your faith and your doubts will starve to death.”-African Proverb
15. I know I will be alright. I’m way too hard on myself but We are working on it.
16. I lied. There has been one consistent thought that has always had a clear beginning and end. “Jesus is the answer.”
17. Maybe I will get back to this writing thing.

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