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The Great Wall of Emotions

These moments are becoming more common and even draining at times

At what point in the constant temptation to walk away from it all do you give in?

The wall you worked hard at building to separate the temptation has managed to form cracks… internally

Then again, maybe that is the problem.

The desire to avoid the temptation rather than addressing it is the cause of this…this feeling… this thinking.

It should not be one of my greatest concerns. Yet for some reason my cry is louder than it has been in a long time.

I know You can hear me and my words may not always be articulated with divine. But this unsettling feeling is being put in Your hands.

Loving more like You is the journey I hope to conquer. And I pray that this subtle feeling does not one day consume me.

Because I know Your Spirit can cling to mine with ease. If I just let my guard down and let You lead.

Hopefully my vision to see beyond the trees is not too out of focus. The temptation to wander off may come and go, but my desire to know You is without question.

These feelings are so bittersweet. One moment I am witnessing how Your Love illuminates the beauty and endless possibilities this life can bring.  And the next moment, I am witnessing the true meaning behind the Book of Ecclesiastes.

Selah.

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My Wandering Eyes

Eyes constantly moving left to right, right to left. I can easily see what is around me, yet blind to the crippling of my own two feet. As I look around, I start feeling as though all eyes are fixed on me, piercing through my skin, looking into my soul. Paranoia sets in; I am holding myself captive in my own mind. Trying to protect myself from what isn’t there. An illusionist hero. But soon paranoia turns into sickness. I now understand that this mental captivity I put myself in and this illusion I created is destroying me. I am my own disease…God I come to You for peace. Take this burden away from me before it consumes me any further. Cleanse my eyes and restore my mind. Help me to stay on your everlasting path of righteousness and redemption. I don’t want these wandering eyes to deceive me from this day forward…I must control these thoughts before it becomes very difficult for me to tell the difference between what I see and reality.