I….I have so much to say yet no words leave these lips.
The fear of self still numbs my spirit.
Lord You know what it is I continue to struggle with.
It comes and goes with an force I can hardly describe.
Father I pray thee forgive these repeated transgressions I commit.
And although I know I am not worthy, through it all, You have shown me grace and mercy.
This is why You Lord will forever be my Savior, my Hope, my Paradigm.
Lord please heal me. They keep falling, they just keep falling. As I walk this path, sorrow and guilt only seem to seep in deeper within the pores of my skin. Will these tears ever go away? Even the ground beneath my feet rebukes these tears. Everything is fading from my grasp. It is like I am taking the life out of everything and everyone I touch. Drowning myself in tears yet so physically, mentally, and emotionally drained. Dehydration is setting in and I am becoming more faint. But I still push forward along this trail praying that my God is only using me for something greater in the end. He says that He “will never leave me nor forsake me”. And no matter how heavy these eyes get, I still believe it to be true. But I would be lying if I said this current state of mind is distracting that truth and causing much internal damage. This hit me so unexpectedly. The dark and lonely depression has set in again. Yes, I am depressed and I cannot fight it alone….Lord help me. Please help me!
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